Currently Watching Elizabethtown By Orlando Bloom, Kirsten Dunst, Susan Sarandon, Alec Baldwin, Bruce McGill, Judy Greer, Jessica Biel, Paul Schneider (IV), Loudon Wainwright III, Gailard Sartain, Jed Rees, Paula Deen, Dan Biggers, Alice Marie Crowe, Tim Devitt, Ted Manson, Maxwell Moss Steen, Reid Thompson Steen, Shane Lyons, Emily Rutherfurd see related

A new song 4 my band:

So here the party started

Here's what I was waiting for

'Cuz let's face it,

Small towns can be a bore.

And that's how it started

The night that he appeared

Now don't get me wrong

I'm a little intimidating

But I still find him

A little interesting

Because he's different from the rest.

He had tapered black hair

He had black and blue eyes

And to my suprise

I found myself

Staring intothem

And thinkig about that guy.

Why would I ever think about this guy?

I wondered why I couldn't get him out of my mind

I wanted to know if he was thinking about me too

When he came up to me and said "I wanna go to the concert with you."

And I saw his eyes

And they pierced my heart

And I wonder why this all began to start

This is my town

My place to be

I thought I ruled it

But now I see my insecurity

He had tapered black hair

He had black and blue eyes

And to my suprise

I found myself

Staring intothem

And thinkig about that guy.

I just stared at him

For a minute or two

I gotta say

I enjoyed the view

Guess he thought he was rejected

When he said "Guess that's a no from you"

He turned to walk away

When I spoke up and said

"Want to meet for coffee

A little ahead?"

And that's how it started

That night he appeared

When I met the guy with tapered black hair.

He had tapered black hair

He had black and blue eyes

And to my suprise

I found myself

Staring intothem

And I'm still thinking about that guy.

Currently Listening Mr. A-Z By Jason Mraz see related

Sigh

I am crazy...

Insane

I must be.

To have these emotions tearing me

Roaring and singing the voices of truth

I crawl in a hole to hide

But am lifted out inside

And I find my heart on the clothesline.

As I see what is what I whine,

I whine to the only one who knows all.

For I know he'll get my call.

But I am terrified

And in my terror I argue

Argue with the one who cares for me most

I cry

"No this can't be!"

But I know it's true inside of me

"No, I refuse."

But it only grows more extreme.

I am frightened

But not alone.

I wish I was a clone

So I could at least try

To push this on someone else

From the same side.

But I am who I am.

I will be so forever

And my arguements end

As He pulls the final lever.

I am how I am

Perhaps...

No it 'tis for the better;

The life I lost

Has been changed forever.

As I look and see what is clear

And I wipe away this tear

I can never tell him the truth.

That I love him...Is this of any use?

I surrender the fight

To the side winning inside

If I don't I may die...

Of heartbreak.

I am afraid as never before

My heart now has a roar

And it's telling me to go

But I can only say..

No.

I don't think I could tell him

Because I own the fear to;

But perhaps one day I'll tell when

I am convinced perhaps his is there too.

I don't know if he knows I even care for him

But it's all right just the same...

I'm only sixteen...

And this is insane.

Currently Listening Two Lefts Don't Make a Right.. But Three Do By Relient K see related

A Question [vol.1]

Why should I care?

Emotions beware.

Why do I care?

A girl with blue eyes and long hair

Sees the hurt

Sees the pain

I care about that.

Why about this?

This should'nt matter so much

But does.

I watch I see

More than thee

I hurt for them

I need to care; but not about him.

Why do I see

These eyes watching me

Watching for what?

For a sign?

For life?

For happiness?

For joy?

Why?

My bro.  took this pic.

Currently Listening Alien Youth By Skillet see related

Due to recent requests, I must update...

1stly:

The sky darkens

The eyes light

The heavens part

It ends the fight

The end of the world is soon past come

Here I am

I am home.

What I am now working on:

Their eyes watch me

Fear showing clear,

They are small

They are helpless

Soon they will be mere

Flights of fury,

Nightmares I see

But it has been a part of my reality.

Abandoned and alone

Not cared for they feel.

And what do I do?

I watch for them to heal

I pass out band aids

For their broken knees

And pray that the Lord

Will show a clearer way for me.

True update after this.I've discovered icons...

The Collage:

Ann Putnam:

Moi:

I stole these 4rm some random pepl's sites, but they're not the real update; which is below

And they lived: